The last few days have been awful. It started with B going away for the weekend. I went out with N on Friday which went fine. Then Saturday my friend got my arty date wrong by a month, and showed up with a birthday cake - which was really sweet but funny. Anyhow, things would have been ok except B was so hot and cold about replying to texts. She seems so disinterested it's untrue. I thin she's just thinking about her trip to Sheffield next weekend. So, we ended up having sex, and she wanted me to take her home pretty much straight after. I've been taking her back and forth the last two weeks, and it's an hour round trip, which I'm getting pretty sick of.
I am giving her another week to see what she wants, because I am feeling less and less appreciated each day. Its my birthday on Thursday. We'll see what happens then - I guess that's a god indicator of how much she cares. If she can't make a fuss of me on that day, then she's probably never going to.
And then, she gets to talk to her strange lovers at the weekend. I think I'll just leave her to it, and ask her straight out if she slept with them or not. She doesn't seem to lie much. I expect she will sleep with them. And if she does, then I know it's time to call things off. I am already getting annoyed and upset about how she's treating me, and have been giving her so much leeway. Well, she has one more week, until next Friday (I guess that's a week and a half really.) We'll see what happens.
I feel so depressed today, I haven't felt like this in weeks. I know that I have been ignoring my feelings again, and this is not a good sign.
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