Discombulated Was So Last Week

It's been awhile since I've written. I think because a lot of my emotions are coming out in songs recently, and I feel really good about that. It's been really productive with writing some good material recently. The recording isn't going so well, I think because I'm very inexperienced in doing that by myself at the moment. But I got a midi controller keyboard, so I can finally add some other instruments and drum tracks more easily.

I am really excited about the music, and thinking about getting singing lessons to help with my vocal technique and try to develop that a bit. It's something I'd like to feel more confident about. The guitar playing is gradually improving though I think, and the new guitar is so awesome. I still look at it like Kate Bekinsale is standing naked in front of me. It's a thing of beauty and I respect it too much to put it down for very long.

Things in love are interesting. Things with B went down a little last week, I got a bit upset and she got distant, but it was that time of the month, and this weekend has been nice. She seems to have backed off a little, and I'm not really sure why. I am sort of under the impression that she's testing me. But, she gave me a surprise by letting me meet her parents yesterday. They seems really nice. I like her mum, she's quite modest and caring I think. It seems they like me too :)

I am going to spring meeting my parents on her...perhaps I'll go round and see them for the first time since Christmas...

A girl I've been chatting to and really liked was pretty harsh to me today when I told her I liked men. Then the rest of the day she was in between apologising and chastising me. She seems a bit unstable. I was sort of romantically interested, and although me and Bex are getting on well, we aren't exclusive yet, and so I was open to the idea of meeting someone. she also has a lot in common with me. Sadly it seems one of those things is flair for drama, and emotional disregulation.

I really need someone a little more down to earth and stable right now. I think that's why I feel B is so good for me. So yeah, this girl K is exciting and fun, but she's so interested in me so quickly, and very fickle with her affections, even across the length of a day. I'll see what she's like tomorrow.