Over and Away

Time to let go. I have been so selfish the last few weeks, and I keep hurting N. I hope that one day she'll forgive me and want me back. But for now I don't know what to do. I need to leave her to her own devices and stop being so clingy. Last night I went round to her house asked to sleep on her sofa, and then crawled into bed with her, and came on to her. Today I felt like shit. My heart is buried under a mountain and being crushed by rock and will never escape. And I know I have to stop pushing right now. So I choose not to push anymore.