Subjected or Smitten?

I really feel awful this evening.  On the good side, I came up with some ideas to make money and I finally spoke to K who agreed to help pay to my travel to the office and allow me to spend more time on customer sites, but will be discussing the details tomorrow.    On the negative side I had a bad training session this evening where I completely failed to show an elderly couple how to use open office mail merge.  :(  

I am missing S like crazy.  I started to get really paranoid today, and checked Myspace and Facebook again.  She really has deleted her profile and doesn't appear on people's friends lists.  I don't know why she did that, it seems a bit silly if she was trying to communicate with my family and friends.  She doesn't answer her phone and it doesn't even go to voicemail, so I guess she has followed through with the changing her number thing.

I am half expecting her to call me on Saturday morning and tell me she's in London.  I don't know whether to believe she would really just show up out of the blue or not.  The romantic part of me says she will do, and everything will be great, and the cynical part of me thinks she has run away with a very expensive engagement ring and I will never hear from her again.  I don't know why she had to disappear for 5 days though.  It's very strange.  It's so hard for me to deal with, and she never keeps her promises, so I don't know why she would keep this one.  

Well, I guess if she doesn't appear within a few days I really will know where I stand.  It will break my heart, or I'll feel so smitten I won't know what to do.  Either way, it will be interesting.