Life Marches On

Weird day. I sort of slagged of N's latest crush, and took him to pieces a bit because I think he might be the same guy C had a lot of trouble with. Then I left and went off to the gym, which turned out to be a fabulously good mood. I took my anger and frustration out on the treadmill and weights, and left feeling like a different person. After that, I started talking to her later, and I discussed going swimming with her on Thursday mornings, which we are going to do I think. We are going to buy Christmas trees this Thursday though.

I have a lot of hope of being friends with her. I really hope I can keep going and get over the hurt, at the same time as keeping in contact with her. It's important, and I really want to have the strength. Most of the issues I have are inside my own head, which is where I need to repair the damage. I hope I can be strong enough to do that.

I talked about T who seems to be having issues at the moment with B and N's breakup. I miss the kid, I really want to see him soon. Perhaps N will let me see them in a week or so. B will perhaps let me see them this coming week. I feel like it would help to be there for him at the moment.

Life marches on. It is starting to feel like the meaning will come back. But it's not there yet.