It hits 5.30 each morning and I wake up in a fit of anxiety. It has been like this for a couple of weeks now. I then begin to feel sick, and can't get back to sleep until I have resolved the problem in my head. Unfortunately, the problem in my head is the same as it always is. I need to get over her and move forward with my life. Maybe if I don't see her for awhile, I will stop hanging on her every word, every message or activity, and begin to see things with some perspective. She's just a girl. Maybe an exceptional, beautiful, wonderful girl, but still she doesn't define me.
Today I am going to have a lazy day and avoid talking to her. We'll see how well it goes. I hope I'll be able to get back to sleep by purging myself of this anxiety somewhat. I wish I could just push all the worry into a little jar and put the lid on, and be free again.
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